027 VOICE LIST ELEVEN

[deadliestviper]

[When Beatrix speaks her voice is hesitant, perhaps a little disturbed, for such a brief and pleasant message. Those who are aware both of her and the current date may be able to guess why.]
To whoever left them outside my door, thanks for the flowers.

[Private to Ben]
My warden informed me about your situation. Check in. [She knows he'll respond better to that than to an "I'm so sorry, are you okay?"]

[Private to Kon]
...Hey.

[Private to Iris]
I need you to let me into the pub.

Comments

[routemistress]

Depends 'ow many copies get run off, usually.

It's not, love. You're just the one I've got 'ere. This is why I love this boat, you know. All these paths not taken. It's 'ard work finding 'em off your own bat, even with a timeship and a feasibility generator - all right, I'm fairly convinced the Admiral does it by accident, but exploration's always been me biggest passion. I couldn't stick 'ere if we didn't get to do so much of it.

[deadliestviper]

Kon's all I need.

I... I don't think I understand.

[routemistress]

'E is a sweetheart, isn't 'e?

I mean all these lives that never 'appened. I might've gone me whole lifespan without ever finding out 'ow my life would've gone as a Wonderland Duchess with a son, or a crackpot pirate whose idea of a good time were a suicide-bomb prison break and who showed affection by aimin' for the less vital spots when she shot someone. I loved bein' those people.

[She swigs down the rest of her glass, refills it thoughtfully and continues, more quietly.]

I even got some good memories out of Bianca, and that's not a thing I ever thought could 'appen. She's haunted me for years, wondering 'ow I could've gone that way. Now I've got the memories of it all in me 'ead. She's not a fun person to remember being - mostly. But I learned something precious.

[deadliestviper]

He is. [And she gives a small, warm smile for the first time in the conversation.] He's a good boy.

There are feelings and memories and thoughts that shouldn't be had. [She holds out her own glass to be refreshed, and gulps down a significant amount of it.] ...Not everyone gets to learn something.

[routemistress]

[Iris is a little appalled at the idea of experiences that shouldn't be had, and it shows; but she loves Bea, and she stops and looks at her face thoughtfully before she speaks.]

That one 'urt, eh? I'm sorry, love.

[deadliestviper]

[Her face doesn't change, and her eyes don't even flicker as she looks back at Iris over the glass. Pain isn't to be shown, not to be dwelt on, and she's eager to move past it – but she doesn't deny it.]

It's like waking up in a panic and you can't sleep from the sheer horror of your dream no matter how you try to forget it. The dream wins, your reality loses, and the whole day you're vaguely disturbed by its memory.

I wish I'd slept through this one.