deadliestviper | 008 SPAM LIST TWO/VIDEO

Current Mood: apathetic
Current Location: Zero

[Spam – Backdated to 8/29-9/5]

[The cell was spartan in its trappings, the whole room nothing but cold metal and hard surfaces. It was small, too, hardly large enough to pace from one end to the other, and offered a distinct lack of privacy due to the row of bars separating Beatrix from the rest of the cellblock. It was tedious, cramped, awkward, but on the whole, tolerable. Worse things could have happened, she knew that well. In terms of punishment, a week of solitude below decks was a remarkably light one for a murder.

Murder. When Sarah had described the killing that way Beatrix had bristled a little at the use of the word (as she saw it, killing Cato had been the natural reaction to his attack) but didn't protest it. Slight inaccuracy aside, murder was what she did.

She supposed she should feel some guilt for that.

The guilt didn't come, however. Instead, B only felt a mixture of mundane emotions: exhaustion from the flood, annoyance at her captivity, and a quiet, hidden satisfaction at a job well done.

Zero, she thought, was not having quite the intended effect on her.]

[Video – current]

Guess who's a free woman.

[At this point, there's little else to say. A fairly empty smile crosses B's face before she turns the feed off.]

[OOC: Joint post for Zero and for the Pants on Fire flood!]

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From:

deadliestviper

[She can't deny anything he's saying, and can't explain it away without spilling secrets she would rather keep. She is a murderer, a mercenary, an outlaw – exactly the kind of person . This is where it gets really uncomfortable; this is where the differences between them become apparent. In turn she goes quiet, picking her words carefully.]

Seeing a friend die is never easy, regardless of how necessary the death is. [She does her best not to think of O-Ren and Vernita.] Did it get them out?

From:

an_abomination

It did. [Dean, Kara, and Steph had all been badly shaken up by the experience and they let him know it when he returned. He still feels guilty about the whole ordeal, even though he doesn't regret his decision.]

[Kon is not oblivious to her hesitation and it worries him.]

Do you think you'll do something like this again? [Watches her intently.]

From:

deadliestviper

Then you did right. [If I can be trusted to know right, she almost adds, but it seems undeniable. Emotionally traumatizing or not, if he'd gotten them out of the arena his had been a good death. A selfless one.

Heroic.

Kon, for all his confusion about morality, was still walking a nobler path than she was, but she's gone too far to turn back now.]

Define "like this". [Semantics, technicalities. She certainly doesn't expect to grapple with Cato again or end a minor fight quite so brutally.]

From:

an_abomination

Kill someone when you could easily subdue them? [Still watching her carefully.]

Back home, people would lie to me all the time. No matter how hard the truth is to hear, I'd rather hear it than be lied to. [His way of saying "please don't lie to me".]

From:

deadliestviper

Easily is an overstatement. After he attacked me I told him I'd give him the chance to walk away. He refused to take it. He was determined – the injuries I inflicted on him should've been sufficient to stop him, but they didn't.

If the circumstances were duplicated, yes, I could see myself killing him again.

From:

an_abomination

Why did he attack you?

From:

deadliestviper

That, I don't know.

From:

an_abomination

You're not telling me everything. Other than using excessive force, nothing you have told me explains you getting the max sentence here. Usually people who get the full sentence are not remorseful or attacked someone for no reason.

From:

deadliestviper

I assume it's meant to discourage me from falling back into my more violent habits.

From:

an_abomination

Still seems harsh. If that's what it's meant for then your Warden is being unfair.

From:

deadliestviper

Here I thought she was going easy on me.

From:

an_abomination

I don't think Inmates can be kept locked in zero for more than a week. [If they could be, he suspects Ladd would spend most of his time in there. Then again, he can't say with completely certainty that Ladd has never spent more than a week in zero.]

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deadliestviper

...doesn't quite fit the crime, does it. [If she went before a court of law she'd be given a multitude of life sentences. One week was nothing.]

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an_abomination

No, but this place is meant to be a chance at redemption and second chances. Even if it doesn't always feel that way. [The floods and ports can be worse than any prison.]

From:

deadliestviper

Of course. [That sounds almost petulant. Even though it's the only way off the Barge Beatrix doesn't want to change. Assassination is who she is.]

From:

an_abomination

My life here is like night and day compared to my life back home, so it's easier for me to put an optimistic spin on it. [Realizes he is the exception to the rule.]

You've helped me so much here, I want to help you too. [Not sure how to at the moment, but the desire is there.]

From:

deadliestviper

I'm not sure if you can, Kon. But it means a lot that you'd try.

From:

an_abomination

If I can change here, there's hope for anyone. People are turned into weapons but I was built to be one.

[Reaches for one of her hands and squeezes it.]

I'll keep trying until something works.

From:

deadliestviper

But you want to change.

[B stiffens when he takes her hand, but relaxes into it and squeezes his back.]

Kon, sometime – and it might not be now – I'm going to have to tell you a little about myself.

From:

an_abomination

Not all of me, but parts of me. [Doesn't want to change some parts of himself even if others might disagree.]

Whenever you want to tell me, I'll be ready to listen. [Smiles at her encouragingly.]

From:

deadliestviper

Even if you're not going to like what you hear?

From:

an_abomination

My history is hardly pristine. I don't want people to judge me for my past or my genetics, so it would hardly be fair of me to pass judgment on someone who has been so accepting towards me.

From:

deadliestviper

...thank you. [Fair or not, she doubts he'll refrain, but goddammit at least he's trying. It's been a long time since B's had a friend quite that accepting.]

Beth's not my real name, for a start. And killing that boy isn't the worst thing I've done. Not by a long shot.

From:

an_abomination

Welcome. [Closes his eyes over, thinking about the mistakes he's made in his past.]

What is it? And did I ever tell you what caused me to escape from my incubation tube and the aftermath?