040 VOICE LIST SIXTEEN
Nov. 1st, 2013 07:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
deadliestviper[Coming out of her first death toll (first real death toll; those times on the Mirror Barge don’t count), Beatrix is in bad shape. Everything hurts and she’s moving much slower than normal, shivering from a cold that just won’t go away. But there are things to be said, news to be shared, and they won’t wait for her to feel better. When the audio clicks on it catches nothing but a breath of air, the sound of hair brushing fabric and skin. Then a throaty voice, hoarse, one straining to sound as normal as possible:]
I want to apologize for everything my other self did. [She pauses; she wishes she could say she’d never done it, but in a sense she hadn’t. She wishes she could say it sickens her to see what her other self is capable of, but all the crimes were those she’d committed before.
Maybe all she can say is that she’ll never do it again.]
I won’t ask anyone to trust me after that. But if any of the people I hurt need satisfaction, whether in the form of words or blood, they’ll have it.
Just make it quick, please. I have unfinished business at home.
Private Messages
[Cecil, Vin, and Bond, separately]
We need to talk. [Mostly about how you’d better not be like that normally.]
[Arya]
I am not happy with you.
[Anya and Ben]
Please know that in my right mind I’d never would do anything to hurt either of you. You don’t have to believe it, but I need to say it.
[Zack]
I… Thank you. Thank you so much. For everything.
And I’m so sorry for trying to kill you.
[Friends and Family]
I’m sorry, again, about what I was.
I don’t know why, but I just – graduated. [She sounds supremely confused about this. Yes, Mirror Barge taught her two lessons, that death is cruel but can also be merciful, that war isn’t always the way to go. They seem like such simple truths, but they’re difficult to realize.] I’m going home. If you’re up for it, I’d like to see you before I go.
I want to apologize for everything my other self did. [She pauses; she wishes she could say she’d never done it, but in a sense she hadn’t. She wishes she could say it sickens her to see what her other self is capable of, but all the crimes were those she’d committed before.
Maybe all she can say is that she’ll never do it again.]
I won’t ask anyone to trust me after that. But if any of the people I hurt need satisfaction, whether in the form of words or blood, they’ll have it.
Just make it quick, please. I have unfinished business at home.
Private Messages
[Cecil, Vin, and Bond, separately]
We need to talk. [Mostly about how you’d better not be like that normally.]
[Arya]
I am not happy with you.
[Anya and Ben]
Please know that in my right mind I’d never would do anything to hurt either of you. You don’t have to believe it, but I need to say it.
[Zack]
I… Thank you. Thank you so much. For everything.
And I’m so sorry for trying to kill you.
[Friends and Family]
I’m sorry, again, about what I was.
I don’t know why, but I just – graduated. [She sounds supremely confused about this. Yes, Mirror Barge taught her two lessons, that death is cruel but can also be merciful, that war isn’t always the way to go. They seem like such simple truths, but they’re difficult to realize.] I’m going home. If you’re up for it, I’d like to see you before I go.
spam
Date: 2013-11-01 04:52 pm (UTC)So she's just a little messy when she opens the door. Not injured.
She hangs back, wondering if giving Bea a hug would be too much - something. ]
[ Spam]
Date: 2013-11-01 04:52 pm (UTC)[ Spam]
Date: 2013-11-01 04:58 pm (UTC)[Whether she means the congratulations or the cocoa, that's not clear. The hot drink warms her hands and she breathes in the steam, letting it waft over her face, before taking a long drink.
If there's someone she can confide this in, it's Riddick, and she leans casually against the doorway. Still, she does not quite manage to met his eyes.]
It's strange. After all that, I don't want anyone here dead.
spam
Date: 2013-11-01 05:00 pm (UTC)Thank you.
private
Date: 2013-11-01 05:01 pm (UTC)[A beat.]
Does she remind you of yourself, too?
private
Date: 2013-11-01 05:03 pm (UTC)spam
Date: 2013-11-01 05:03 pm (UTC)He let Anya make Dean skin me. Just - [She holds out her fingers a few inches apart.] A little. A smidge.
And I didn't fight back.
spam
Date: 2013-11-01 05:05 pm (UTC)Oh.
Slowly, she nods.]
Are you going to hurt them?
Re: [ Spam]
Date: 2013-11-01 05:16 pm (UTC)You get... Tired of it. Knowing it won't solve anything.
private
Date: 2013-11-01 05:20 pm (UTC)spam
Date: 2013-11-01 05:26 pm (UTC)That doesn't mean I don't want to.
[Private]
Date: 2013-11-01 05:27 pm (UTC)It puts her on the defensive.]
I'm not going to say sorry. That wasn't me.
[Private]
Date: 2013-11-01 05:29 pm (UTC)[He's drunk: it's not immediately evident. He's being facetious but at the same time, there is weight in his voice. He's trying to escape dwelling. Talking doesn't make it easier.]
private
Date: 2013-11-01 05:51 pm (UTC)spam
Date: 2013-11-01 05:53 pm (UTC)It's right that you want to.
[ Spam]
Date: 2013-11-01 05:55 pm (UTC)And I'm going home to kill three people.
private
Date: 2013-11-01 05:55 pm (UTC)[She is, and Beatrix is. Beautiful, dangerous, ruthless, and strong.]
Re: [ Spam]
Date: 2013-11-01 05:56 pm (UTC)Then get some rest.
[Private]
Date: 2013-11-01 05:57 pm (UTC)I know, and I don't expect you to.
Have you ever done that before?
[Private]
Date: 2013-11-01 05:59 pm (UTC)[He's not getting out of it that easy.]
spam
Date: 2013-11-01 06:00 pm (UTC)But I can't. If I was going to it would be someone who deserved it more.
spam
Date: 2013-11-01 06:02 pm (UTC)spam
Date: 2013-11-01 06:08 pm (UTC)[Private]
Date: 2013-11-01 06:10 pm (UTC)[ Spam]
Date: 2013-11-01 06:10 pm (UTC)It's just, I still want these three dead. I still know they deserve to die. That didn't change. I always thought it would.